Guilty thoughts
Empty faces sorround me
Silent voices speak to me
I know not where I am
Nor do I know where Im going
I feel no ground beneath me
I see no sky above me
My sun, my light, my warmth
He may be here
But I cannot remember his face
I cannot feel his hand within mine
or his kiss upon my lips
I long to be forgotten
I crave to be a memory
this pain is now in a past
that keeps invading my present
therefore my future
I shiver in the coldness of my thoughts
and scream what seems like whispers
that I never loved you
I never wanted you
You were not taken
You left!
You swore to hold me as I cried
And now I cry because you cannot
You promised to always listen
But did you hear me
When I said I love you?
Well, now my heart is mine
You had no right to take it from me
Tears of acid burn my cheeks
as I beg to have it back
Though I pray you will not do so
For all I am will mean nothing
If the love I gave to you
Does not forever stay
With the only one who will ever deserve it
I have no more tears for you
I cannot even hurt
for all feelings have left me
I think of you as a dream I once had
A dream of a prfect man
a perfect day
a dream that ends before it ends
I hated you
I still do
No one will ever know how much I ache
How many times I think of you in one day
How many dreams
I blame myself for ever believing you
for ever loving you
so now I say
that I never did!
